Living with Ana

Every moring you wake up and she is lying right next to you. Her perfect fat less structure with its petruding bones digging into your fatty hips. You carefully move her aside, hoping to get one hour awake without he pestering you, but she is a light sleeper and always wakes.
As you make your way down to the shower she prods your stomache and complains about the way it wobbles as you walk. Walking past the mirror is compolsorary even though she knows it upsets you. She makes you take a long look at your self. She tells you to examine the way you belly curves out into a jellyfied lump. The way your love handles hang over your wide hips,and the way your neck bones are hidden by a layer of excess fat. After a careful survey of yesterdays calorie damage,she tells you to march your way down to the shower. Scrub harder...harder. Make sure you remove all the dirt, it will weigh you down. Even those extra grams are important so scrub!
Your body red from all the scrubbing you get out the scale. This is a crucial part of the days activities. Slowly you master up the courage to assend the scales. Ana coxes you on! You open your eyes and read off the display...That cant be right Ana shouts get off and on again...again...again. After desperatly getting on and off hoping there is an error in your scales system, you and Ana finally come to terms with the truth...You are still FAT.
Now comes the first real anxiety attack...what to eat for breakfast...you really want rice and creamy curry, but no way is Ana going to let you bring any of the to your lips. Her stress inducing voice cascades from her mouth. Your friend who you share a bed with has becme a gestapo officer. You beg her to please spare you to let you enjoy your breakfast. All she does is remind you of how extreamly big you are and how many excess calories there are in just the rice. A fat person like you doesnt need them. Imagin if every one had as bad self control as you have...The worl would be completly crowded with FAT people...Do YOU really want to be fat cause that is what you are. She is the only one who can help you. She knows what you can eat and when you can eat. You have to trust her and listen to her! You cant start thinking you know how to do it yourself because then you will only become like all the FAT people out there, and then you will be ugly and worthless!
When you have finished eating your salad...you make your way to your next weigh in. Your mind is doing summer saults trying to figure out how you are going to explain to Ana that you have already gained 100g. You only had a salad. You step onto the scale again....PHEW all though your still fat, at least you havnt gained. Obviously Ana did know what she was talking about...So glad you listened now!
As the hours pass your tummy starts to grumble its hungry....but Ana tells you to be strong. Only the weak give into their evil stomaches. Your family offer you lunch. You really would like to accept, sit and eat with them...enjoy the food and their compony. When you tell Ana this she just laughes at you! How can you be so naive? Cant you see that they are plotting against you! They dont want you to be beautiful! Why do you need to eat with them, when you can do sit ups with your BEST FRIEND Ana.
After 4 hours of suffering and 400 sit ups later, you cant take it any more you are screaming inside, but Ana can see inside you and she imidiatly starts on you. Telling you how weak you are and how if you cant hold out for a day how do you expect to look good? You have allready had around 100cal and you still have diner to think of . Ana knows that she cant help the fact that your parents make you eat diner, so she compensates by telling you not to eat lunch.
As the clock starts to near diner time you start to sweat! You know there is another battle coming up. You sit down at the diner table and your nose is filled with a delicious smell. Delicious Ana asks..Cant you smell the calories. You are so lucky Ana is there by your side. You would have eaten all that food other wise, cause you just saw that it looked nice. Good thing Ana knows better!
Diner is over but your still hungry. Thats good though, means you may not be as FAT tomorrow.
Time for another weigh in. OH SHIT you have gained 1kg. Ana is furrious. She becomes agressive. You have to be punished. Get the razor out! Maybe if you drain your self of some blood you will be lighter! Anything to at least feel lighter!
You go to bed feeling like a failiour! Ana tells you that you have to do an extra 200 sit ups before you go to bed. You are so tiered but only FAT people give in just because they are tiered!
Ana gets a magazine out and opens it to the page of beautiful people look at these people...do you think they give up? Of course they dont she barks!
You go to bed...you sleep...you wake up....and Ana is right there with you all the time!

YOUR BEST FRIEND ANA