Monkey

I hate the monkey he is so cruel..he leaves me just long enough to let me eat thats last potatoe, but just as I swollow he comes back...and he shouts and screams and calls me weak! And the truth is I dont have any contorl over what I eat...my mouth just eats all the time. Im not even hungry! Im gunna go to the doctor in a moth and I am gunna have gained weight, cuz I cant control, myself! I need to learn that food is not a thing I need! I need to feel good..and at the moment eating is not making me feel mentaly good..The monkey is too smart for me..I cant beat him and he wont compramise, he only tricks me into eating so that he can shout at me again! He loves to see me fail! HE LOVES THE CHANCE TO CALL ME A FAT PIG WITH NO SELF CONTROL! It may not be normal to not eat all day and it may not be something that people should or need to do..but it is possible..and anything that is possible I should be able to do...and if I cant I am no better than any one else...and I am ment to be better then a lot of people (wow that sounded consieded)

People can have eating disorders but not be skinny and I knowthat is true and it makes sence and all that..but I dont believe it! I dont have an eating disorder I eat too much! And people tell me I have eaten enough or too much all the time..then they tell me to eat and that I am too skinny...when I want to eat they comment on what I am eating and make me feel like a pig..and when I as a result dont eat...they complain! I want tolive all on my own with an empty fridge and a packet of gum and a nice gym that has machines that show you how many cal u have burnt!