Honestly Im scared
I dont really know what I am scared of. I think it is a combination of getting fat and of getting more obsessed. I dont know I really want to lose thoes 4 pounds that are keeping me from my target weight, but I dont know how. I could stop eating all together but that would probably just lead to weight gain. I dont see what more I can do. I mean I could cut out the odd apple or clementina...but apples are meant to be negative kcal anyway. I dont want to get any deeper into this but at the same time very time I try to think rationally about food I just get scared of gaining weight. I am at the moment on a fruit and veg diet...I am consantly pushing the boundries to see how much fruit I can eat without gaining.
I feel bloated today although nothing....not even a crumb (I lie 3 pasta pieces) have entered my mouth that was not fruit or veg. Salad for dinner maybe isnt so smart. It just makes me feel BLUU
We will see...
posted by Flaky @ 3:39 PM
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Look considering your logic in the first place, reaching your goal weight will only make you get another one. It will keep going because you claim to be incapable of keep a constant weight and you find it easier to lose instead of remain constant.
not easier but more emotionally reasuring to know that I may not by mistake gain!
Yeah but once you reach 40kg then you'll be afraid of being above it. So you'll lose more weight for reassurance. 30 will be the new 40.
I am now on 41..so not far to go
update 40.6
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