Where is my yellow brick road?

My life seems to have loast its purpose completly (not that I believe there is a purpose to human life) A more personal purpose of goal to my life would be nice though. A fog seems to have rolled in over my life, leaving me stranded in a haze. I cant seem to find the yellow brick road that will lead me to my saving wizard.
I dont even have thoes little flags that orienterers do, so that they know they are on the right track. NO PATH, NO HINTS....Maybe everyone has to find their reason without a path? No that cant be the case, because I definatly had little red flags before....who hid my little red flags?
Maybe I should see it as a reliefe I am free to do anything I want, ignorance is bliss...Nah I am still to inteligant to believe that! Ignorance is just a good excuse...in the long run what is the point of making excusses as to why you fucked yourself up...NO one but you really cares..they dont want to know your little excusses and you cant fool yourself.
I really need that friends to come looking for me, out in my cloud of fog...I need that friend so badly!
Technically I would deem thoes friends to be in sweden still and maybe I should move back there....but then...Here I am escaping from a fog that really isnt a fog, its me...Every where I go, I always take the weather with me. I really thought I had escaped myself when I moved here...and things have got better. I have changed as a person, and I am happy about that, but is this what I need? What do I need?
There is no place like home, there is no place like home,there is no place like home...Why arnt these damn shoes working. Is it the case that no one knows (not even the magic shoes) where home is...