Hypno therapy

I told mum it wasnt a good idea! Another horrid attack all because I feel my mind has been invaded, raped by some man trying to get me to eat! Feel so sick, and on top of that I am less important to my sister than her msn and less important to my mum then dinner.
I dont know what to do. I get my unimportance proved to me over and over again. Why cant I just stop loving them.
I have no one here to talk to and all the ppl I loved so much in sweden have lives now that dont involve me, and they dont care.
I am going to wollow in self pitty and wish that I had a sharp razor!!!!