first weekend leave

Got to the unit on sunday evening...was really scared to start with specially when they told me that at nine every night we have to hand our mobiles in. Luckily I managed to persuade them to let me keep it!
I was actually perfectly fine. The night staff are so much fun and its not scary or lonely sleeping in the dorms, with 2 anorexics a schitso an OCD sufferer and a plain pain in the ass lol. Was a bit annoying when they came in and woke us up at six o clock for our Monday morning weight check. We then had to go back to bad as we are not allowed to get up and start getting in the shower until 7, ready for breakfast at 8.30 sharpish (a bowl of cereal, whole milk(I get rice milk cause of my lactose intolerance), toast and orange juice)! At 10 (yes SO late) school (if you can call it that) starts. At 11.10 its time for snack (digestive biscuite or kitkat and whole milk) back to school at 11.30. Lunch at 13.00 (goes on a two week rottar, always includes a custard desert.) Back to school at 13.30. End school at 15.10 and snack time at 15.30. Dinner at 18.00 (also on a rotar, usually yogurt or fruit and ice cream for desert. And at 20.00 another snack just to top it all off!
Bed time is 23.00, but that varies on the mood of the night staff and what is going on.
On most days (not weigh days monday and thursday) we get woken up at 08.00.
On fridays school starts at 11.30.

I have played WAY TOO MUCH rummycub this week and done WAY TOO LITTLE other stuff..but the weaving was intersting and the cooking sessions on monday mornings save me from the hospital food (which actually I find ok)
My anorexia is so about control I find it so easy to just cruise along in the hospital environment, its fun sneaking in the extra excersize and not sitting still for 30 min after dinner (yes I have to be watched after dinner) As soon as I got home on Friday though eating became hard again, the anorexic thoughts came back, woke up about 5 times after dreaming of food related issues. I cant handle eating when I am not being forced to. Dont suppose I will be allowed home next weekend since I havnt stuck to my meal plan this weekend. I did lose weight this week (Ya I managed to loose a kg in hospital, recon I had binge weight when I went in) so I dont know why they let me home. I think it had to do with the fact that I go to synagogue on saturday and have special Friday night dinners.
Dont think this place is gunna help me over come my eating disorder, but I am scared to transferre to a specialist adult unit because I have settled in so nicely here and the people are young (thats both good and bad).
We will see how the next week goes...