...BIOLOGY....BEWARE...

Had a breakdown today about my hw..Mum was really nice and comforting though so it was actually nice in the end! I did my hw and things are ok right now although I feel a little piggish and peckish.
Got soem new clothes today which is always fun! Everything I ware is now black (cept jeans...hard to find nice pairs of black jeans)
Mum says I am looking skinnier than what I did when I got here. But I think she si just paranoid now becasue cant ossible be skinnier with the amount I eat. I think she is going to by me a more accurate scale when she has someleft over money, so that I can get a better idea of what i weigh.
It is funny cuz today in the shop trying the clothes on it was like I suddenly saw what others see when they look at me.The thing is I really liked the stick I saw, unfortunatly the next tme I looked se as gone!
I got a JOB, YAY! I wont have much of a life as I will be working 9.30-6.30 every Sat, in the Tescos staff cantine. Oh well hope the food isnt too good so I get all tempted.
Was gunna go shopping with Josh today but he was baby sitting. Thats ok I had a nice day with mum.
Have to do my RE tomorrow, and then maybe I will pop round to Frasers, we will see.
Thinking about Maxim still gives me weired feelings it feels like I was married for years and lived a grownups life and now I am back to square one..I wonder if Fraser feels the same after Emma.Oh well Fraser seems to have a brain and a heart unlike Maxim.
I do realize the effect my mentality has on my eating sometimes and it is scary. The other day when I was stoned I got the munchies of course and usually I would drink (there was vodka) and eat (there was chocolate) but I did neither, that suprised me! Oh well my control obsessed part is ever so happy!