Alone

Jennie wrote in her blogg that we are always alone. That "You can live together with other people, but together generally means next to." she also however says that that is good enough..I dont agree. I am constantly feeling alone, while I am being told I am never alone because I have so many people that love me. I dont know if Jennies threory gives strength and validity to my feeling of loneliness, because the truth is I am alone. Or wheather it is telling me that I have to get it together and learnt to live with the fact that I will always be alone!
Either way I do not believe that happiness comes from being with others..well atleast it shouldnt do. Ironically enough I can never face the fact that I am the only one that can make me happy. I am constantly looking to my friends and family to "cure" me of my malaise. This isnt fair to them or to the me that is inside looking for a way out but constantly feeling trapped by my hatred of myself. I guess the fact that I have all these insights may make me more capable of doing some thing about my situatuion, but once again the circumstance is not true to what it should be. I am again sticking sticks in my wheels as Robert would have said. I dont need any more insights, I need to take action.. but first I need to come to terms with the fact that either there is something wrong or there isnt I cant keep jumping inbetween!