Dr Yangs Anatomy and tv in general

There is this one little part in this one episode of the great show Grey's anatomy that I would like to frame (if that were a possibility)
Its Yangs rant in the theater auditorium after losing a charades game to George and his gf. It so sums up what I think.
Talking about TV I am getting slightly pissed of at the fact that there is now 24 day 6. Ya the year has 365 days. That doesnt mean that we need to know what Jack is doing on every one of thes days. Maybe we can have a different angle on his life and just watch 24 hours of him taking the day off sick.
New episodes of Despertae House Wifes coming soon. Maybe we will finally find out why the crazy psycho ran over susans bf (fiancee had he not been hit by a car)
Love Maricia Cross and Felicity Huffman is an excellent actress (love her in The English Patient)
Not so sure I get why every one has fallen so for miss latino personally Selma Hayek or Penelope Cruz (or is it Cruise Oh well they were married) are muc better at everything.
Lost is taking a month or so brake, waiting for US to show the next episode. Now we will have to wait and see if Jac,Soyer and Kate survive captivity. I recon that they will....I dont think the other actaually want to kill them. Leave that to the polar bears and black shadow monsters.
Watching lost made me think there is such a word as Implode how odd (the opposite of explode..obviously) never thought of that before the hatch imploded.
Brand new episodes of the OC coming soon. As if I care. My sister swares blindly that they were meant to be over for ever. I really dont know and couldnt care less.
I would like to see a new series of House..that is one cynical doctor...
Food shows, law /crime and hospital shows thats what really intrests me.
Cant be bothered with all these silly programs like 24 and The Unit (although it is watchable)
Shouldnt spend so much time infront of the TV any way so I guess I am lucky that I have watched so much TV in the past and have so many channels that I cant even be bothered to decide what to watch...i'd rather just fuff about on the computer.

Studying

Wow actually got about half way (a little less I would say) through re writing all the case studies we have to know for cognitive psycology (have to do developmental after that). Taking a break now cause it is not good to work on one thing for too long. Will go back to it after I have had a rest.
I want Dr Pepper zero or pepsi max.....They arent that nice but I want some any way!

Isolation

The feeling of being alone in a house full of people that supposedly love you.

ZZZZ

Wow so I was invited by a guy (who must have asked me out about 100times) to go to a dinner with him. He said his church was having a posh dinner, and after having fun in Cardiff I thought why not. So I went along, well turned out to be his church youth group having a little christmas meal. The average age of the people was about 13. The meal was the same fucking christmas food I ahve had about 100 times by now, and by the time we were served the first tables had allready eaten. So much for being posh, it was in a scout hall with fold up tables and chairs. I was so bored. I was looking forward to a few glasses of wine and a nice dinner..not a load of little children throwing food at eachother. One good thing did come out of it. I was not hungry when I got there so I didnt eat instead of doing what I usaullt do and eating double lol!
Doing my fuckign course work today....better get on with it really!

The past

You were my only safety for so long, that I didnt want to relaize that you were what was making me unsafe.
You made your self my al,l and then took advantage of that!
You were so inocent in your domenering streangth, and I was so inocent in my love.
Who could have guessed that something so insignificant could change me so much. My experiance level has out grown me. Now I cant find your replacement and I dont know why.
I need that needyness without the spite. I need the complete devotion without the blackmail. I need the complete vulnerability, without the resentment.

Christmas spirit

Wow Jo bought two packets of xmas cards and just got people writing, From me To you in them..He then chucked them across the common room. The christmas music has been playing in the cantine for a couple of days now...nice and cheery, and a little annoying!

tummy bug

I seem to have a tummy bug! I dont feel bad or anything just stomache cramps and constant repeated need of the bathroom.
I think it is so funny to think back to my "ana" in sweden and think how much I actually ate...I mean it wasnt like eating small amounts even. I wonder if in a few months I will look back at now and think OMG what a pig!!!

true tube

A new site is starting up in February that is meant to spark ethical debate among young internet users. They came to our school toay to see what issues we thought were most relevant to be used on the site. I was there until the BEAUTIFUL assortment of cream cakes came out. I tried sitting there but, watching all these (some over weight) ppl stuff their faces with cake was too much for me so I left and went home instead.
Now I am trying to find some alternative information on Natural Law, but they sites dont seem to go inot much detail about Thomas and his precepts and so on.
I still have no plans for the holidays (well revize and watch movies) but I would like to go to some parties. I have another christmas meal on Saturday..dont some how think it is gunna be quite as posh or enjoyable but its not as far to go either.
Felt pretty good today when I was the only one who actually did the English lan essay on the commentary. Felt like I accomplished something lol. Now I have to see what grade I get. I think it was over generalized and not text specific enough, but we will see.
Vicki eating is annoying me so badly I dont know why. I think it is just the fact that i am getting deeper and deeper into my ED and she was such a little pretender. She is now known as vicki the one with food all the time. Its not just the amount of food it the amount of junk shit. And unlike some of the other ppl at Steyning who eat tuns of sweets Vicki C and co Vicki S doesnt have the figure that should inspire her to want to gain an more weight. She isnt exactly the lightest one of the bunch. Sorry Im ranting but she annoys me!

Cardiff

Right well the journey there started at 9 in the morning from Brighton train station. I had a approximatly 3 hour journey to Bristol. I was gunna do some hw on my computer but ther didnt have any pluggs so I decided I would read my RE sheets instead. I then slept a little and continued reading my English book (G.d of small things)
When I got to Bristol I was late and had missed my train..fortunatly or unfortunatly the train to Cardiff was delayed any way and a 40 min wait was rather an inconviniance. When I finally got to Cradiff I was rather worried that Robin wouldnt recognise me (but he did)
First impressions: cute, kind gentlemanly
We went back to his house (which was fucking freezing) and waited for his friend Amy to come over. When she got there we sat in her car and smoked some spliffs...went to pick up a 20bag and then they had another spliff. I decided not to as I didnt want to be high when we went to the dinner.
We got ready for the dinner.
When we got there we got a glass of champeign as we enetered. As usual I finished that faster than others finished theirs. First trip to the bar and I had a jack daniels and lemon and lime schweps...really nice! I then proceded to have 2 or 3 archers peach snaps and lemon and lime schweps. Really HEAVENLY... I was really careful not to get to drunk. Felt rather in control!
Dinner was salmon and mousse I asked for just the salmon. For the main course there was turkey, brussle sprouts roast potatoe sweed and carrots. I asked for extra brussle sprouts ( I adore them) and not potatoes. Instead of desert I then had another helping of the food (the portions were tiny and I hadnt eaten all day! The cheff got really confused and came out and asked me personally what it was I wanted.
The food was excellent!
Had another drink before we left. Took a taxi back to Robins. We were intending on going out to get some MDMA but when we phoned his friends they were at the Hard Rock Caffee and we decided we couldnt be bothered to go there. We put a movie on and fell asleep to it. Woke up a few times during th night to see what his friends were up to and if they could deliver the MDMA, but inn the end we just went to sleep. Fully dressed and with the light on. Got up relativly early around 10ish and rewatched the film we had fallen asleep to. My train back left at 14.15 so it wasnt a very long stay. The journey back was a night mare it took 6 hrs of bus and train journey to finally get home.
All in all I am not sure if it was worth all the traveling...It was fun but ever so brief.
As always I gained no weight even though there was alcohol involved...

Then came today...fuck what a bad day from start to finish... Woke up in a complete state of panick and it wouldnt leave me. Cant be bothered to go inot more detail but it really was unpleasant and I am not completly sure that I wont have a rerun of it tomorrow.

Kinnda busted

My step dad asked me if I have been being sick because he went up to use my bathroom and apparently there was like sick all over the toillette. I cant remember leaving it is such a state, but I just sorta said. NO and let it go. It could have been poop lol...

5 weeks

Its now 5 weeks until my modular AS exams. I am starting to get worried! I have got to get this right! Psycology is going to be the most difficult with like 100 case studies to learn..biology is going to be the one that I am going to be the most scared of becayse I really should know it by now! RE hopefully I will be able to do without any big problems, but then saying that who knows. Also got my Shakespear course work now...Considering the fact I havnt even finished the play and the part I have read made no sence and was so boring I dont know how thats gunna go.
Miss Glover thought my story was good...not that she is great at praising. I just ahve to do an excellent commentary now and hope for the best!
Will be working hard on the journey to and from Cardiff this wk end.
I guess its really good that I was told by all the teachers that I could get an A. The bad thing is it gives me no reason to drop anything, and it hightens the pressure. It really annoys me that psycology is the subject I am finidng the most tediouse.
Right I am gunna get back to listening to Rix fm...ya I seriously do miss listing to rix morgon zoo every morning on the way to school. I am starting to miss a lot of little things from sweden. like the way my grandma made sure my clothes were tidy and the set tv rutine.
Im feeling a little peckish hmm think I may just wait until breakfast only another 5hrs to go. time to sleep now...

Parents evening

Wow for once parents evening has given me a little confidence! All the teachers said nice things about me!
Had christmas lunch at work today so went in and all I did was have lunch there lol. I love boiled sprouts!

Hypno therapy

I told mum it wasnt a good idea! Another horrid attack all because I feel my mind has been invaded, raped by some man trying to get me to eat! Feel so sick, and on top of that I am less important to my sister than her msn and less important to my mum then dinner.
I dont know what to do. I get my unimportance proved to me over and over again. Why cant I just stop loving them.
I have no one here to talk to and all the ppl I loved so much in sweden have lives now that dont involve me, and they dont care.
I am going to wollow in self pitty and wish that I had a sharp razor!!!!

Funniest pic from jail break

Vega4

Just got round to listening to the cd I got at the concert i went to in october. It pretty good actually....
Lost weight dispite the 6 platres of salad and chicken, and all the alcohol. I always looooooose weight when I drink...odd!
I so need to do my course work! Fuckign shit I need to learn all the stuff I need. Why am I so lazy?

Blackout

Right so yesterday I was meant to go out with Darryl and co but he was ill so instead I went out with these random men that were painting the polls and cielings lol. Went into town with them and drank too much. I cant fucking remember how I got home. I hope I didnt wake my parents! My clothes were all in a pile and my key was in the door so I am guessing didnt wake them. I didnt feel myself getting drunk yesterday...I was thinking wow I can drink alot I must be like an alcoholic lol....then I dont remember anything. The reasuring thing is that usually I act normally even when I dont remember it.
The police have called again but this time I am just gunna ignore them lol. Thats the good thing with living here. They keep calling during skl and leaving messages which I will ignore, mostly cuz it got deleted off my phone so I dont have he number any more.
I am really annoyed cuz mum took the scales bk to her room ( I managed to keep them for like a week without her taking them bk) I need them today cuz I had like 5 portiones of salad yesterday and all the drink. I dont feel fat at the moment which is good, but usually it means I do way tuns.
Think we are having a family chat today about the other day. I dont know what to say cuz I am still drunk and I dont know what I want any way. I dont want to move out but that would be nice. I dont want to go back to sweden. I dont know!

Violence

So I thought I might have left the oven on at work and wanted to call them to warn them. I hate phone catallogues and came down and gave it to mum at which I got a huge angry "do it ur self she isnt ur slave" to which I replyed "I dont know how" "Well u should learn" he sneered obviously forgetting that to learn I would need teaching....cant be arsed to go through it all but ended in a bruise a knock about squish ball and strangling. Now mims is at a friends and I could find one near enough who could have me.....
Going out all night tomorrow night! YAY should be fun!